The Meaning of Blue Roses

And as I was at work washing my hands in the women's bathroom, some smart aleck said and we have hot water over here. Stalking and shaming me over replacement of the hot water heater because when ours went out I boiled water so my daughter could have a hot bath.  Never take your cell phone to the bathroom with you though I'm not sure nowadays if that makes much difference. That was at the beginning though.  You know when someone was shaming me about the house and terrorizing me and terrorizing me over the email and books and movies and TV shows and Limewire and the lawyers and child trafficking and identity thefts and anthem and Facebook. I wonder if they ever got a bunch of money for their water lawsuit.  They were doing something so strange over the well water and over some lawyer and probiotics and yeast, and septic tanks and Facebook posts on my phones for taxes and stuff for years now.

The bill pay app attack continues today.  I do not use online banking anymore.  And I certainly will never access a bank account on my phone again.   Not after the thefts and fraud and cyberattacking for the lawyers and my ex-husband.  They absolutely tried to destroy me. 

Even the oddest thing on picking out dresses for all these other weddings and going to the movies with Damon and teachers coming up and asking me about summer matinees and Rapunzel and Rumpelstiltskin and memories of my family and friends from school and drunks and donations and brainwashing. Then of course they kept going I'm going to the movies I'm picking my seat.  Stuff over Joanne Hawkridge and Joanne Dankle and Peach County schools and Peach Valley Club.  I hope they all have white towels.  Chris Lawrimore only has white towels……how odd I watched those movies with Dodi on the old HP Pavilion and was remembering my favorite summer matinees.  How odd.  Heidi.  The Last Unicorn.  Rumpelstiltskin.  Little Red Riding Hood.  The Ice Princess.  Then they did something nasty to me of something else with that HP.  Really nasty things over human trafficking indictments and identity thefts.

It seems I used to kill every single solitary plant I ever tried to cultivate.  I mean I did have a small outdoor garden with squash, potatoes, even grew cantaloupe and herbs.  But it seems that inside no matter what I had, it managed to die.   I was so thrilled to spend the first part of this morning till this afternoon transplanting all of these plants that have to be split because they're flourishing.  I came up with all these weird things to use for planters.  Succulents in coffee cans from my endless supply of coffee and espresso.  Planters from old carafes and old coffee pots that leaked or went kaput. What I do miss is the outdoor herbs and little raised garden beds.  Oftentimes when I have too much time alone I sit and think about the things that aren't like they used to be.  I saw the woman leave again this morning, and removed all doubt of the lawyers mixing me up with women from the shelter and the lawyers who attacked ...

Somebody put me in a dating site.  Hinges?  Weird romance thing.    I've never in my life used a dating site.  I like the ambience of leaving things to fate.   Besides,  I'm a walking, breathing poster child for scams and identity thefts.  If anyone has ever been a victim of stalking either physically or online they will understand why I will not do a dating site.   The second reason I would never ever do a dating site is being over fifty, all of us are "high mileage".  Lol.  Most of the men that have asked me out or shown any interest were mainly interested in sex.  When that subject comes up by the second conversation or so and we haven't even actually "hung out" as my girls calI it, I tend to wonder if it is like a habit to go around and have casual sex.  I mean I do like sex. I LOVE it  actually.  I won't  apologize for that either and I'm very comfortable with my sexuality.   It just...

Every Holly that one could conjure up.  All the while Stephen King and the audiobook End of Watch.  Every Facebook, AOL, contact information and eavesdropping. Even mixed in Spotify and Neill Diamond...... Holly holy One.....Rachel after Rachel.  One of them called DFCS and the police on me and I don't even know who she is.   The other one is my cousin, another one is Callie's friend from Facebook and church and another a friend of Dodi's.  What was this crap done for?   Which lawyers and which government officials?   Why were these people trying to protect pedophilia and attacking me with attorneys for the pedophiles lawyers and military?  Still going through pictures and websites and calls and texts and emails and messages and whatever else you can do for the lawyers and Facebook.  US Navy and the awful things done to me.  Remember now every time you do it, I'm going to tell.   They got on my phone again tonigh...

My coworker and friend would swap out clothes from his mom and wife every so often.  She had several nice outfits,  the wife, that I offered to do some minor alterations.  I did most of the alterations and then took the balance to Mullis dry cleaners to have them cleaned and finish up one zipper.  I had also taken my husband's tuxedo there.  The lady had given Dodi a little Scottie dog and I absolutely love Scottie dogs.  She also gave her one of those little Christian cartoon booklets.  In the meantime someone has searched my house and there were Christmas cards there from a Mullis and his wife.  A fellow that worked in maintenance at my employer at the time.  At the cleaners, her husband had a truck for sale and I was interested in it because I'm a bit of a junk gypsy, and I thought it would be a perfect thing to have for myself and my husband who was trying to vamp up his own business at the same time.   I even laughed and said I...

Spicy Catfish Stew with Spicy Cheese Cornbread By Katherine Bullock from Fort Valley GA This is a favorite recipe that reminds me of Catfish cook-off at the Brooklyn Cayce, SC park, days fishing at the ponds in Peach Valley, or nights at Creekside Catfish with my girls in Fort Valley, GA.   4 large fresh tomatoes diced  Two cups of fresh sliced okra 4 medium to large potatoes diced or cubed 2 large spicy yellow onions 4 lbs of boneless catfish 4 cups of vegetable broth. I use frozen stock from beans or greens. Whatever is in the freezer. 2 - 3 Jalepeno or other hot pepper grounded for spicy. I wash mine and throw it in a small food processor and then dump it in minced. 1 packet of crab boil seasoning. I put all the ingredients together in a large stock pot. Boil 30 minutes, add a splash of hot sauce, splash of Worcestershire, a little squirt of ketchup, and a mustard squirt, then simmer 30 minutes, and serve with cornbread. Jalepeno Cheese Cornbread 1 Egg 2 cups Ma...

Marberry Pie One graham cracker crust 1 low-fat cream cheese 1 small pack of raspberries 1 small pack of blackberries ½ cup powdered sugar 1 container of low-fat whipping cream.  In a blender add softened cream cheese raspberries and blackberries. Poor in a bowl and fold in powdered sugar, mix well. Pour mixture into prepared pie shell. Chill until firm and cover with whipping cream. Delicious and tart. Interestingly enough, Koree, pronounced Corey or Korey means "Dick" in traditional Romani language..... mystical Gypsy language.

Birthday Cake for Our Furry Family Members Many a dog's love to sample a cat box. Here's a delicious treat that the kids will get a kick out of to celebrate with Fido. Pets like kids enjoy something gross every now and then. What you will need: One small wash dish or cat box. 1 to 2 lb of ground chicken or turkey or pork white meat. Wild game can be used as well. Small colored milk bones. This will be the green and off white variety. Three or four sausage dog treats. Cook the white meat well and spread in the cat pan. Crunch up and mix off white bones in little pieces and mix with meat. This will give a dirty cat box look. To make it more authentic crunch up two or three of the green bones into little pieces to look like the chlorophyll colored clay in a real cat box. Roll your sausage dog treats in mixture and shape as desired. They also make a carob treat that can be softened and rolled as well. You should end up with an authentic looking cat box by placing the ...

Guilt Free Muffins 2 cups of sweet potatoes cooked soft ¼ cup of flaxseed ⅓ Cup of pureed apples or sugar free applesauce ½ cup oatmeal 3 eggs 1 ½ of gluten free rice flour sifted with 1 tbs of baking soda ½ of monk sweetener or stevia.  I like the monk better the stevia taste weird to me. ¼ cup of water or unsweetened almond milk Dried fruit such as raisins or cranberries may be added if you'd like.  About 1/4 of a cup is enough. Put the oven on 350°.  Blend by hand all ingredients until well blended.  Pour into a lightly prepared muffin tin.  This should make about 18 muffins.  I used rice flour to prepare pan. Bake for about 18 to 20 minutes.  While the muffins are baking take about half a block of softened cream cheese.  Add 1 to 2 tsp of monk sweetener until well blended.  When muffins come out allow to cool slightly then take a butter knife and run around the edges as they sometimes like to stick.   Muffin should remove easily....

Bread Pudding Recipe  3 cups of stale bread or cake.   4 Large Eggs 1 stick of butter 2 cups of sugar 2 TBS of Vanilla 2 Cups of Cream or Milk Grease a pan, cube and crumble bread in to greased pan.  Mix sugar, eggs, butter, milk and vanilla and pour over bread. Preheat oven to 350, while bread sits in mixture. Chop 1 cup of pecans, ½ cup of packed brown sugar, ½ stick of butter and 1 egg and mix well.  Drizzle all over top of soaked bread.   Bake for 30 minutes in preheated oven.   Mix  ½ cup of brandy, 1 egg, 1 cup of sugar or honey and pour over top.  Bake another 15 to 20 minutes.  Serve warm. Katherine Bullock, Fort Valley, GA Bread pudding has a sentimental meaning to me.  I was missing the little treats my former mother in law would send home with my hubby on occasion. Once in a while a little bowl of bread pudding. This was months post divorce of a needlessly brutal divorce.  In fact, I was missing that part o...

Your Momma's Sawmill Gravy - 1980 Brown two tbs of flour in a cast iron skillet.  Make a little clearing in the center of the brown flour.   Add drippings from 1 lb. Of ground sausage to the center of the flour and allow it to sizzle over the brown flour.  Stir in cooked ground sausage, and add 1 - 2 cups of sweet cream milk.  Stir until thick and add salt and fresh ground pepper to taste.  Serve over biscuits. 2020 Revision Brown in iron skillet Ground 1 lb of organic ground turkey or ground tofu meat substitute.  Set aside on plate. Brown 2 tbs of gluten free flour in skillet, make a circle in the flour and add two tbsp of all natural butter or coconut oil and allow to sizzle over flour. Add 1 to 2 cups of skim milk or low-fat goat's milk and crumbled sausage.   Add fresh ground sage, 1tsp of potassium low sodium salt, fresh ground course pepper, and serve over gluten free biscuits.  I like the recipe that King Arthur has.

Just chilling with my Ma....

National day of prayer.   I pray for someone who can pray with me and love me as well as match my passion for life and the joy of being alive..  I pray to find happiness and peace.  I pray for our educators and officials, police officers and politicians, my family and my country.  I pray to find friendships and healing through my hurt.  I pray for justice and truth and financial decisions that make us all prosper and pray for forgiveness.  I give a prayer of thanksgiving for the gift of life itself.  I pray for our health and our health care.  I pray for unconditional love in a love starved world.  I pray for everyone who feels lost and sorrow including myself.  I pray for strength and wisdom.  I pray that God knows my prayers before they leave my mouth, or are formed in my head. I pray for my family members and extended family.  I pray for my friends though I haven't heard from them since the cyberattack and cell phone ha...

It's very easy to express the truth about things that were harmful and leave us scars on the inside or outside.  What about what brings happiness and joy to the bleakest moments in our lives?  The quiet times with God when our souls feel him lifting us up from a load to heavy to hold onto.  What about the outstanding opportunity to dearly love someone else, even when we hate what they do, what they did, or the hurt they brought to our life?  So much joy from loving them that would be lost if God hadn't held us up through the pain.   There's a question about the difference between fate and destiny.  What is the difference between fate and destiny?  We control our destiny through our fate.  Fate is actually determined by decisions and thoughts and actions throughout our entire life on Earth.  For years I kept a little print out of Charles Swindolls Attitude on my desk at work.  Mainly for the statement that life is 10% what happens to...

Mr Church movie quote It's an absolute shame to love someone so much you hate them for leaving, Even before they're gone.

Callie had an Ernie doll in the attic at my house at 82 Perch Lane Fort Valley GA.  As in Bert and Ernie from Sesame Street. She loved that doll.  Stuffed away in a bag, next to all sorts of things that were saved through the years. While I was cyber attacked I would go up into the attic frequently and go through everything and just cry and cry and cry.  The photos and letters and stuff from my life.  Whatever they were doing it was relentless.  Memories, and strange things with streaming through Facebook and my Wi-Fi.  One day I was up there and I could distinctly hear Becky. My mother in law.  I was sitting there holding the Ernie doll and I heard her say, " I'm about to wring Ernie's neck.". I started looking around and looking at the attic fan, and looking for surveillance cameras.  It was kind of frightening and kind of funny at the same time. At first, before I realized that it was the Wi-Fi radio I thought where in the world is this coming ...