All The Little Things

I so bad cannot and never could tolerate my children in distress or discomfort.  

Shortly after Damons death, with my youngest daughter refusing to go home from the in laws, I would check her attendance to make sure she was okay or at school.  She was out sick one day and they behaved absolutely shocked and outraged that I would inquire about my daughter.  

I found out that she evidently was feeling under the weather.  When you are emotionally under so much stress and then you physically feel bad it's a double whammy.  I ran and got her Earl Gray tea and honey, a few things to make her feel better.  I had kept trying to reach out to her and she finally told me that I could drop them off if I wanted to after work.  

It was pouring rain and I drove all the way there to drop it off and they refused to answer the door, or phone again.  Just like Damon did.  They have absolutely tortured me with the identity theft and internet activities of other people over an FBI tip on child trafficking I did years ago.  
Lent calendars and Facebook and Instagram,  AOL , Yahoo emails and dark web stalking.  All of the most horrendous hurtful things that were done were used for custody of my youngest daughter.  I go anywhere in Peach County and they run their mouth about me.   I don't know why.  It is extremely hurtful and cruel.  I'm so tired of every time I try to tell somebody something one little bunch of them hollering I'm insane.  I guess that's why I have a giant folder full of fraud affidavits, FCC, FBI tips, housing fraud and identity thefts.  My favorite was when they were sending out all of these giant fake checks using someone's real account a different business name and sending it to an individual and some idiots would cash it.  I turned mine in and somebody turned around and cashed one.  I cannot tell you the trouble I went through to prove that it wasn't me and it's just been one thing after another and now you're doing this to me. Horrible things.  

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