Don't Lose Your Focus

When I am overwhelmed and unfocused, I feel my anger, stress, or sorrows raise into my mindset like a sour bile caught in your throat before you puke.

I have these little private moments that I call a bitch fit.  I go into my room, cry, scream, sob, or write every nasty thought that plagues my soul at that particular moment.  I need this to refocus.  Once I'm done, I mutter to myself a moment, wallow in my self pity and self absorbed worry, and then..... didn't change anything.  Do I really want or need the negative energy I am letting into the universe back?  On top of what provoked this incident to begin with?  It didn't solve anything.  
I focus on the end result of the situation.  I ask myself, what can I do?  What can I do that will change this situation?  What can I do to help someone else affected by the situation?  Then I focus on the end result.  I stretch my hands behind my head and lay flat,  filling my lungs as full as I can.  Then, slowly, I release my breath.  Energy in, negative out.  Just like each breath.  I take the O² in, and carbon dioxide out.  Picturing my body and soul taking in what it needs, and releasing that which it doesn't.  

I am focused.  I am grateful.  I am free of worry. I am blessed.  I am loved.  God made me for a purpose.  God is with me.  Every moment of my life is a miracle.  My soul will heal.  My body is healthy.  I will have what I need.  I am whole.

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