The You get what you give game and Wysiwyg

So the neighbor threatened me and my husband with a 410 gun,  it must have been about 2014.  Something over our dog and poop with corn in it and hollering he knew it was ours.  My husband who was a very mild man in public, actually told him to shut up.  Of course then I was furious at my husband because he gave out our IP address and our IMEI and routing keys to the same neighbors.  I wasn't thrilled because that particular neighbor was going in and out of jail at the time and in some trouble.  The next thing I know they're threatening us with Phoenix Center 410.... And doing some kind of weird game that's like LARP only different where they're like acting out movies and books and then trying to stream audiobooks and movies and conversations through the phone, hacking and eavesdropping and identity thefts. Kept talking about you get what you give you get what you give.   Lawyers got involved.  Then of course the ransomware attacks, don't forget the ransomware attacks.  And some crap over the pipeline and a bunch of stuff from South Carolina and Florida and North Carolina, even California.  

And then somebody did some other kind of joke but whatever was going on I don't think they realized that I really did have an exchange student that was selling Abeka books from Russia and he went home with a canceled check in his pocket.  I actually did have somebody trying to hack me and I actually did have Russian customs calling me non-stop demanding money.  

So whoever was doing the identity theft or their own personal investigation or whatever they called themselves doing was actually spreading the identity theft and hurting me.  And don't forget after all of that when I was finally depleted my husband left me and then the lawyer used it to terrorize me some more.  Parental Alienation and stalking me.  

They threw everything on it but the kitchen sink to really really hurt me.  I want them to know that my life is too short to continue stressing and hurting and worrying over what they will try to do next.  All I care about right now is seeing my youngest daughter graduate from high school and go on to further her education.  I want her to have a productive happy adulthood.  I want independence and responsibility for her.  I want her to own herself and be accountable in life.  I wanted her to learn to give as much to the world as you get out of it.  To live and coexist with all of God's people.

Love doesn't cut off and on like a flip light switch.  It just is.  It's eternal.  Love never runs out.  Regardless of whether someone left you or hurt you, whether you were angry at them or they were angry at you, doesn't effect love.  You see my former husband died unexpectedly.  Some people may think I hated him or that I should hate him.  Some people may think I shouldn't care because we were divorced.  What they do not understand is this is someone that I love.  Unconditional love.  We created life.  A gift from God for our lives together.  Our child .   She is the very best representation of her parents.  All children are.  If they're a mess,  we made them a mess.  If they are awesome,  we made them awesome.  If they're a beautiful mess, then we made them a beautiful mess.  They are the very best representation of those that created them, and those that touched their existence.  I do not think I will ever understand how someone can say they hate their spouse or former spouse but love their children.  I'm not sorry I love him.  I'm very sad he is not on Earth with us anymore.  One day we will see him again.  I will not apologize for loving anyone.  Love is infinite.

My life isn't what it could have been and it may not even be what it should be.  My life is however the very best I can do right here at this moment and that makes me proud.  It makes God proud too.    I cannot change anything that has happened to me the past several years but I can look around and find happiness in this moment, in my current space on Earth and feel blessed.  

Of course the foolishness hasn't ended but it doesn't cancel out my thankfulness.  You know I had a friend and a co-worker from many years ago, that said you can respect others, not own their accountability, and handle your own business.  It kind of goes in line with what my father said.  The negative things that people say or do to you are none of your business and they're actually no consequence to you.  Once I thought about it seriously, what does any of the negative things that were said or done have to do with my life right here and now?  Nothing.  Just because someone says it doesn't make it true.  Who are they to dictate who or what I am or my lot in life?  

Someone actually commented recently on how much I have with how little I have.  I treat every single thing I have like I'm never ever going to get it again.   I enjoy each thing as if it's a once in a lifetime opportunity.  I've learned that we're not guaranteed anything.  Each minute, each breath, everyday is a once in a lifetime event.  I hope that everyone can look back and say that was the time of my life.  I really have no regrets, just a lot of once in a lifetime opportunities.

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