My Prayers for my Child

Over and over I ask you Lord to take care of Dodi and open her eyes and heart to the truth.  It hurts so very bad, but I know that I cannot give up.  I have to leave this load with you Lord and wait on your will.  Dodi has to come home of her own will.  Lord he took her once and I gave in,  in order to get her back.  Thank you God for holding us up when we had nothing left to do.  I never gave up on my child or gave her to anyone else to raise.  Help me with the alienation from my child and the falsehoods in her mind that are hurting us.  She is a gift from God taken from my life.  Lord form a shield of protection around us and please restore our lives and comfort her.

All through our lives, from the night she almost died in my arms, you have never let us go.  Even when I was hurt and angry, you never gave up on me or Dodi.  Please help me be the most like you I can be.  Lord please whisper in Damon's ear and let him know everything I never got to say.  Tell him the truth and allow his spirit which is of you and reembodied by Christ to watch over us.  Thank you Lord for the man he was underneath his addictions and suffering.  Thank you for taking it away.  All things are new through you.




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