The Meaning of Blue Roses

I still have my mustard seed pendant.  A little mustard seed sealed in a drop of resin.  How odd it is that around 2015 shortly after my father injured his leg I was reading that book.  Actually I had even tried to read it to a fella at the hospital while my dad was there.  Anyway I was still reading it when I returned home.  I was laughing with my husband about us getting older and saggy breasts.  I looked at him and said if I say mountain move from here to there, it is possible!  I love that silly memory with my husband.  That's before everything became extremely hurtful, weird and scary.  Somebody listened to every conversation.  

He called her doctor, and told her it was a lie.  I heard that too. Then the serious medication comments about "you're fixing to go on some serious medication for your condition".    Abortion, mixing up my Dad's old dog Baby with her uterus and my miscarriage and eavesdropping and stalking me.  Butt doctors on the Samsung phone and home network calls, magic Jack hacks.  Coach Smith .  Coach Campbell.  Coach Carter.  A Cassie from Young and the Restless and Cassie from Nobles, Cassie in Florida, Cassie in South Carolina, Cassie from State Farm policies.  I mean what is so hard to believe that someone would do an elaborate identity theft?  What century do you people live in that you do not think this is possible?  You just let it go on about all kinds of things and these people did some of the most awful things to me and no one,  no one understood that.  All of it might be in the past and on to new crimes and criminals, but ...